Maybe I just need to accept that I won’t be able to be strong on my own.
I am frail. After being knocked down, I can’t stand back up on my own. I need a crutch. I need someone else to help me. To talk to me or listen to me, and say something that can lift me up again.
I am undecisive. I really can’t do anything on my own. Working in the restaurant, no decisions or choices do I make without talking to someone else first. And I don’t think it is only because I don’t know, but that even if I do know, I am too unsure of my answer without another’s confirmation.
I am scared. I’ve always wanted to be able to be square and do things on my own. But if I go out to eat, I feel uncomfortable eating alone. I want to be a confident and hidden wallflower at parties, but I am awkward, and 2x such in my head when I am not talking to another.
I know that humans are not meant to be alone. I had accepted that as a general concept, but I never applied it to myself. No matter that fact, I just always wished to be a strong, completely independent person.
Now it is time for me to realize that I can’t be a strong person by myself.
Reblog if you do too. Just to prove that it is more normal than what people actually think.